Two months of full hearts and pure joy.
Dear Louis Robert,
You are
two months old. We have spent 60 days getting to know your every in and out. 60
days of smiles and tears, joy and frustration, 60 days of pure love. Even now,
I look at pictures from that perfect Thursday morning when the world was still
asleep and Dad and I welcomed you into this world, and I long to relive that
moment over and over again. The doctor set you on Mommy’s chest, and you just
stared up at me with those huge eyes. You just took in the world. No tears, no
crying, just wide-eyes staring into Mommy’s. The moment you made me a Mom, and
my world would never be the same. And ever since, you have been looking up at
me with those same wide eyes. Asking for food, asking for a clean diaper,
asking for a nap, asking for cuddles, longing to be loved. And that’s exactly
what I plan to spend my life doing- loving you.
Right
now loving you is so easy. You are cuddly, smiley, and full of joy. You are not
yet influenced by the world, and your every need is met by Mom and Dad. We can
hold you, protect you and calm your tears. But someday I know that loving you
may become more of a challenge. Those days you decide to break the rules,
ignore our requests, make messes, talk back. The days when no amount of rocking
will calm your tears or erase your fears. Those days you are less than perfect.
And in those moments I hope to remember that perfect Thursday morning, when all
the world was asleep and the unconditional love that flooded my heart, and I
vow to guide you, teach you, love you and hold you through it all.
You are
my baby. In this crazy, chaotic world it is always you who stops time while I
take in your tiny features. It is always you who reminds me that my most
important job in life is to love you, care for you, and raise you well. I will
make mistakes. Oh will I make so many mistakes. But I promise to wake up each
day with renewed joy, energy and strength knowing that God gave me you.
Together we will learn, grow, discover and change. Together we will be a family
and for that I am forever grateful.
Another
month of loving you, each day I dream of your future, yet long for the past,
and live in the moment soaking you in. Each day I observe you, in awe of just
how fast you are growing. And in the blink of an eye you will be yet another
month older, and another milestone wiser. So for now I will cherish each of our
days together, holding you, loving you, and being your Mom.
I love you always,
Your Mom
Your Mom
Your Mom
